he needed to find himself...it had begun

He had wondered if he was capable of erotic moments. Actually, wondered if he even knew what it may entail. 

His breathing knew to become erratic at images capturing a sense of something deeper than sensuality between a woman and man. 

He found himself, many a time, fascinated and lost in the portrayal of what looked like, a complete engrossing of lovers...committed to nothing else but, the sheer abandon to bodily and personal pleasure.

Porn no longer held his capture. It felt too available. Of course there were those nights when the wet swollen 'womaness' of a porn star did it for him...watching her arching and writhing, meeting the ardent hardness of a man or two.

But, he began to search for something else...that tease...that taunt...that lust to touch gently, be touched in return...the feel of a woman desiring of him...of his attention.

In return he wanted to discover within him, that which he knew resided somewhere deep deep, and kept on nagging to be acknowledged and recognised.

So, when she took control and with gentle firmness persuaded him to let her do things to him he had never thought of before, he didn't cheat himself with holding back but, let her redefine the very fibre of his sensual being.

Her strength was that of a caring lover, a knowing lover...coaxing, plying...tasting...nibbling...sharing her need to hear his moan and not only feel and see his pleasure.   

She made him ask her to do things to him....his balls...how deliciously she indulged in them....

And, every time he wished to lift himself and attempt to reach her, she would push him back and promise him a taste of her when the time was right.

It seemed forever and yet too short, her devouring of him...and in the drive home, he found it difficult to recall all that had happened...in a trance state and the desire even deeper to know more as to what she defined as erotic.

Was this it? Was this the journey he had hoped to embark on? 

It didn't matter. 

For the first time in a long time, his body felt alive and a deeper desire  now tingled in his groin and the yearning burnt hot ...the discovery had begun.

RB.